My wants

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“I’m here to be me, which is taking a great deal longer than I had hoped”.
Anne Lamont

I have recently written a series of posts exploring my needs. Thinking through those needs led me one day to have an epiphany, a sudden realisation of where my life was actually heading. So very clearly that day I could see that I did not want that. That direction was not right for any of my needs, for my health, my stability, my financial security, for my need to be needed. It made me take a good hard look and understand the difference between what I thought I should be doing and what was in my heart. So in an instant I decided to take my life in another direction, albeit that it may take me some time to put those desires in place.

As described earlier, one of the reasons I found it difficult to think about my needs was the fact that I felt that I had become the discarded consequence of another person’s supposed needs and wants having taken precedence over me and everything I had ever known and treasured: our family unit, our values, beliefs and responsibilities. I felt that I could not discard them as well and in particular my sense of ‘responsibility’. In amongst my sense of responsibility was holding onto the dreams and aspirations we had as a couple and seeing those through. That meant keeping the house and the business. In my epiphany, I realised that direction was not right for me as an individual and as a single person alone approaching sixty years of age. A voice inside me screamed out

I DO NOT WANT THIS!

Fair enough. I have now stated what I do not want.
It has taken an absolute crisis and eighteen months of soul-searching to finally realise and state what I do not want.
What is it that I do want?
My needs have been explored.
What about my wants?

Needs are distinguished from wants as a deficiency of needs causes a negative outcome. Wants are extra to our needs. We can live without them. If I found it difficult stating my needs, then exploring my wants makes me feel truly self-centred. Yet, divorce and living alone gives me that luxury of being able to do that. So here goes.

THIS IS WHAT I TRULY WANT FROM MY LIFE

  1. Inner peace
  2. Respect
  3. Longevity
  4. Time with my loved ones
  5. Calm

I have come to realise that my wants are not than far removed from my needs. They are not selfish or over-indulgent. The greatest challenge for me is to actually prioritise as my responsibility the fulfilling of those needs and wants, and accepting that it is all right for me to do so.

“The key is not to prioritise your schedule, but to schedule your priorities”
Stephen Covey

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32 thoughts on “My wants

    • Hello. Perhaps that is not beyond the realms of possibility. Maybe when I next visit my son in Vancouver sometime next year? I do have to let you into a little secret though, I do not drink coffee or wine or eat cheesecake. However, would love to join you for a decaf, vodka or oatcake πŸ™‚

      PS. “The diet” is a LONG story…..

  1. I think you boiled down nicely what real “wants” are – we can list things, but they are really a means to an end, looking for the real things like inner peace and respect.

  2. I’m impressed by your working out both needs and wants and with the way you are discovering yourself and what you really want. Go for it all – it’s not that much to ask! πŸ™‚

  3. I define ‘need’ and ‘want’ regularly for my son. “We need more honey!” he yells from the kitchen, etc. I constantly remind him we don’t need half of what we have, and we are fortunate.

    • The distinction between ‘want’ and ‘need’ is a fine line that can make or break your way in life sometimes. Understanding the difference can be enlightening.
      thanks for stopping by. I really appreciate it.

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  5. 2) a blog. My entries are in Comments sections of various infidelity-recovery blogs, such as my 6/13/13 “kudos” about…

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  7. 9) Your xH abandoned a GEM, elizabeth2560! When you’re fully healed & are no longer in love w/yr xH, a DESERVING..

  8. 10) gentleman will thank his Higher Power to have the opportunity to treat you like the Sparkling Diamond that you are!

    • Thanks for your positive comments about me.
      It is very hard sometimes and one feels so alone at times. It is uplifting to get comments form people to my blog who relate their own stories (so that I know I am not alone), and who also make me feel valued.

      You have a story to tell and you should start your own blog.

      Best wishes πŸ™‚

  9. 11) I’ve attended 3 weddings of women over 60, & 2 of women over 70. It ‘aint over ’til you stop breathing! πŸ˜€

  10. 12) If you feel differently in the future, OurTime.com, eharmony.com, etc., are BRIMMING w/dating & marriage prospects!

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