feeling intoxicated!

ID-100128413.africaI have been feeling Euphoric!

The taste of what true freedom means is beginning to seep into the essence of my being.
This began after the sale of the business and has continued to grow as I have gradually shut down all work commitments. Since my head has been clear of that part of me, I have been better able to see more clearly what my life will be like. For the very first time, I have been able to see my life as a single person and being able to build that life as I want to.

When I had the business to manage and the marital property settlement to contend with, I grieved not having a partner to lean on in the decision-making process of that period. It was tough going because for forty years I had always had someone beside me for previous big decisions. Having navigated that period by myself and succeeded in my resolve to ensure the business sale proceeded and the property settlement was fair and reasonable, I now have more confidence. I know that whatever event in life I am confronted with, I will have the courage to face it and survive. Moreover, I can climb to the top of the mountain!

With the business sold and marital settlement trudging over, there is now for me a lifting from my shoulders of a large weight and a somewhat delayed but nevertheless euphoric and triumphant ‘I have done it‘ beating of my fists into the air!

I am free. I am on my own and I am free. I do not have to compromise my time any more. I am free to adjust and adapt my time with myself and my loved ones and my contributions to society and my creative projects or whatever else I decide. How I distribute that time is mine alone to choose. And that feeling of being alone and single and being able to control my own time in its entirety is intoxicating.

 

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33 thoughts on “feeling intoxicated!

  1. Woohoo!! Ride the wave šŸŒŠ
    This calls for celebration. Go out and do something you have never done before. Why not start this chapter with a bang Elizabeth.
    After the dust had settled on my marriage, I went on an adventure trip to Morocco with a friend. It was the watershed moment into my new life.
    And I’ve never looked back …

    • Ah, yes… to go an adventure. That I DO intend to do.. main difficulty is there are too many choices to pick just one šŸ™‚

      by the way, how did you do the ‘wave’ emoticon?

      • Picking one is all that’s required. There will be plenty more opportunities šŸ™‚
        The šŸŒŠ is from the list of emoticons I get when I hit and hold down “control-command-space”.
        Its the last one on the šŸŒø page after the rainbow šŸŒˆ
        I could spend a lot of time playing here!

    • There has been plenty of fear and being overwhelmed along the way, yet strangely that has suddenly lifted and I see the advantages of my position. Now I have tasted and breathed that freedom, I think I am ready for the full meal! Thanks for your wishes.

  2. This was “stepping out in faith” and truly letting go of the last part of your past life, Elizabeth.
    You will always have lovely memories and your wonderful children, but the business and commitment to someone is gone. You are your own soul and command your own destiny. Enjoy your new freedom! Hugs, Robin

  3. Elizabeth, my Mom fell on slippery wet grass down a slope and shattered her hip bone on Saturday. On Sunday (three days ago), there was surgery and a titanium rod with beads to hold pieces the doctor said were like a jigsaw puzzle, fell back into place neatly. Thank goodness!
    I am not trying to take away from this splendid post. I did not want to dwell on my personal sadness but maybe things will lighten up. She looked quite rested and while in the hospital was learning how to transfer from bed to chair and getting help to get out of bed. Just wanted to share here instead of on my own post. The posts which do this seem to be looking for sympathy. I just wish for close friends to know. Hugs, Robin

    • Robin, I am sorry to hear about your Mum’s fall. I think that it is harder seeing our loved ones suffer, than suffer ourselves because we feel out of control. I know that you will support her and help her through her rehabilitation period until she is more properly back on her feet. Then you will be more able to assess her long-term capacity which may or may not be changed. My mother-in-law broke her hip when she was already fragile and we thought that it would mean that she would not be able to manage on her own again. Yet, after some weeks with my sister-in-law, she was able to move back home and stayed in her own home by herself for another eighteen years. Keep strong and know that I am thinking of you. Hugs

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